To whom much is given, much is required.
~Luke 12:48
...highly sensitive. Yeah, I know. You thought I was going to disclose some craziness. Well, because of this, um, situation, things can, at times, get crazy. Small things that don’t bother other people, bother me. Smells, the way certain things feel, the tone of someone’s voice, a clicking sound in a piece of music, silence, body language, the temperature of a room...I can go on and on. They all bother me. I know it seems crazy, right? And sometimes, that’s exactly how I feel. Some days I’m more hypersensitive than others and yesterday was one of those days.
My prayer, on those hypersensitive days, is for God to remove this “thing” from me. I mean really, what is the purpose of being so sensitive? Who is this helping? If there was a part of myself that I can say at times that I hate, it would be this sensitivity. To me, it’s a weakness. I become reclusive, start crying, become withdrawn all in 3.5 seconds flat. And most of the time, I can’t tell you why.
As I sat in the floor of my shower, praying this same prayer to God, I saw flashes of the same sensitivity in a positive light. The fact that I’m highly sensitive makes me highly perceptive to the needs of others. I usually can easily put myself into the shoes of another and do what I can to help them. A lot of the times, I can anticipate both the positive and negative repercussions of an action and take them both into consideration.
Why am I telling you all of this? Well, let me put it like this: Say God blesses you with a new car. It’s the car of your dreams. It’s fully loaded, the color you wanted, and the warranty is unheard of. Your credit is shot and you are still trying to figure out how you even got this car.
As you drive the car, you think about how grateful you are that God cared enough about you to bless you with this great gift. You are grateful...until the first car note comes. You see, everything that is worth having is worth working hard for and to whom much is given, much is required.
Silver Lining: If you have a lot of responsibility, you have a lot of blessings. Be grateful and GET TO WORK!